🧸 Q-time 🧸

The layover in Aruba—just one day and night—where I dared to explore beyond the hotel. I felt a sense of safety in finding a place to eat, then sitting by the beach, taking in the view. The entire trip had been taken care of by my mother, who expected my return—and that gave me space to simply be.

That’s why group trips appeal to me: they offer a similar sense of security. They’re often fully arranged, from door to door. So who knows—maybe one day, I’ll have the courage to try that.

Now that I’m prioritizing soothing myself at home—with more sleep, more baths, and childhood-friendly nourishing meals—I’m beginning to consider step-by-step exploration outside. Just like in Aruba, I felt free and calm, and I want to create that same feeling here. I’m working on making a habit of going to the sea once a week, even if it’s just for an hour—offline—to breathe deeply and let the wind clear my mind.

I started this year by switching my screens to grayscale, and I still do that regularly. It’s brought me a bit closer to my emotions.

Although the grip of the online world is there, I’m step-by-step adding in more offline moments where I can. This online-to-offline pace feels most realistic for me.

Even though feeling safe and secure outside depends on more than just me, if it were only up to me, I’d aim to enjoy the sea once a week.