🔥 LORENA 🔥

Deeply flawed

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I look forward to every stage of intimacy (friend, lover, etc.) in a perfect world. However, this perfect world seems distant due to one of my areas of improvement (personal SWOT analysis next week): my neuroticism.

I fear commitment if I were to welcome a new special friend into my home, afraid they’ll become too territorial. To me, being too territorial means that they might refuse to leave or (in)directly deny entry to others, shielding me from the rest of the world. As an avoidant person fearing commitment with an anxious one, when I give in to reassure and comfort, the roles might switch, and I become the anxious one. We then end up in an endless cycle of switching 🌪. Both scenarios seem unhealthy to me.

That’s why, as of today, October 7th, 2023, it remains an idea to invite this new special kind of friendship (with upgrade potential) into my life and my home. Being able to set boundaries and feel safe at home is crucial to me. I need the freedom at home to make choices and navigate intimacy step by step, to create a more healthy attachement with a new special friend.

Written with the help of chatGPT🤖