🔥 LORENA 🔥

Deeply flawed

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After a day full of relaxation at home today, I spontaneously feel like using this energy to try a cocktail or mocktail. I want to enjoy the taste, the view, and the atmosphere outdoors while exploring new flavors. I imagine what I would do if I were on vacation now. I would probably try out a nice bar, where I would feel less afraid to dress up and be fully groomed. And then maybe enjoy a movie at the cinema with a little sweet rosé, and go home safely, giggling.

I might be able to handle alcohol occasionally, but because I can be so flirtatious and alcohol lowers my inhibitions even more, I want to learn to handle it healthily to stay safe outdoors. Drinking with a papi is also enjoyable for me, preferably sweet red wine like port, while reading a book together or watching a movie and discussing it late into the night. Or perhaps go skinny dipping together afterward at night. I like getting tipsy at most; after that, all inhibitions are gone, and my wild side comes out more clearly. I start doing splits and dancing as if no one is watching🥲.

The weekend immediately after my period, or possibly the one after that, is when my energy is at its highest (so once or twice a month🍹), and this might be the best time to do something spontaneous like this. Additionally, to regularly stay in touch with this eager and sensual side of mine, I could take a dance class, such as pole dancing or twerking. Regularly giving space to this sensual side in a relatively safe environment might make me feel more seen, less ashamed, and less lonely. And it just might put a little extra pep in my step.