🔥 LORENA 🔥

Deeply flawed

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The thought of a man overprotecting me feels suffocating, especially if it seems to restrict my freedom of choice. It brings up images of macho behavior to keep other men away, triggering old pain, instilling fear and chaos, which I don’t see as healthy protection. It prompts me to seek space, which might seem like a personal rejection, though it’s not intentional. I need autonomy and to develop self-care skills while receiving support. How much freedom do I have under this protection? Am I allowed to make life decisions, have my own thoughts, feelings, and boundaries? Am I allowed to critically think about his words, or must I agree with everything? Must I believe he’s the only one who cares, who can make me feel loved and sexy at the same time? Must I be only a possession, or can I breathe and be human?

It physically hurts to lack connection with someone who cares so deeply, who wants me exclusively and sheltered from the rest of the world like a diamond necklace in a vault. But outside the bedroom, this dominant behavior without considering my identity feels discouraging and frustrating. Even though he might stay on my mental list, this still motivates me to be open to nothing more than friendly contact, if that’s even possible.