🖊 WRITE 🖊

Hot dreams, peaking — they keep waking me up.

Maybe it’s the rising temperatures, or maybe I feel so calm that I can be completely myself more often. This week, I’m prioritizing sleep over regular morning walks, but trying to break these unconscious patterns does make me feel powerless.

I’ve been proud of how well I’ve taken care of myself during the day these past months. But at night, I get what I crave during the day: a high. I wonder what triggers me during the day — I’m already careful about what I expose myself to. I ask myself how I can manage it better. It’s frustrating, because it wakes me up and makes me feel tired during the day.

I long for deep sleep, but I also hunger for release.

In sleep, it feels safe to be uninhibited — safer than when I’m awake.

So what wins tonight: rest or the rush?