🔥 LORENA 🔥

Deeply flawed

🐓🥶🌪🏳🫦

I (Loreen) am becoming increasingly aware of my own feelings, needs, boundaries and need others to healthily verbalize their feelings, boundaries and needs to me. This helps deepen our connection and make it more meaningful. After all, my intention is to connect :).Behind my survival mechanisms lies my most sensitive, receptive, and open side, which I try to protect healthily step by step by verbalizing my feelings, needs, and boundaries instead of relying on these mechanisms, because I am relatively safe to communicate these.

Often, what’s first visible is 🐓 and 🥶, then 🌪, or I alternate between them unless someone consistently prioritizes vulnerability. Then 🏳 mainly comes forward, which makes it difficult to stay open about my boundaries and needs unless I am encouraged and supported to communicate them(backbone🦴 allowed). When this happens, we reach thin ice. Someone who continues to prioritize vulnerability also sees this 🫦 increasingly—I radiate it mostly unconsciously, no matter how much I try to suppress it. This side is insatiable, raw, wild, and intense, or at least that’s how I experience it.

So, I try to protect this side because once it is activated, and the pure receptive, open, and sensitive side feels safe. Oh dear. There are very few people who see and can healthily reach both sides. Most see mainly one side or the other. But someone who sees both, understands them, and speaks their languages fluently—I have a soft spot for them and probably always will. I think this is why I also have a fear of intimacy, let alone a fear of commitment, because I like to believe that I am able to meet my need for autonomy more than this urge to submit over and over 🥲.