👩🏾‍🦱 AFRO 👩🏾‍🦱

I’ve still got a small bit of professionally bleached hair on the ends that’s gradually thinning* out. Aside from that, I can see the brown section I did with a box dye months ago, and my darker roots. The idea of dyeing my hair keeps popping into my head, and I switch between wanting blonde, red, brown, and black.

It helps that I intend on taking a year-long break from coloring. I can’t decide on a color, mainly because I’m also thinking about the maintenance involved and the health of my hair. My tendency to frequently change my mind about my hair choices, such as its color, is likely driven by a fear of a lack of autonomy and safety in how I care for my hair, especially when I wear it long and out.

I’m going to continue exploring these needs without coloring until my next anniversary. Then, I’ll decide whether to take another break from dyeing or pick a color. If I had a lot of money, I’d alternate seamless, glueless, secure-fitting wigs during this break. For now, I just vicariously live through those who wear these glowing hair colors.

*It’s getting thinner because I tried to chemically lighten the professionally bleached hair myself a few times. I was aiming for the darkest part, but I included the ends in the process too.