🔥 LORENA 🔥

Deeply flawed

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She is worth every cent. Look how healthy the bleached part still looks. Realistically, apart from wanting my hair in a certain style, the compulsion to do it might be hiding something deeper that I need to give time to. So, I am going to try making 30 braids from the ones I have now. This way, I can care for it more easily, and it will be more manageable when (or if🥲) it gets warmer. I think I will stick to giving my scalp a bit more love. And if the underlying need is not just more focused attention but also some pampering for my hair, then I might buy a deliciously scented hair oil as a gift to massage my scalp with. Every once in a while, I feel this compulsion. I wonder what will happen if I weather this storm. I also wonder why I have this. I think it’s because I associate this kind of adjustment, this new hairstyle, with responsibility and adulthood. Why else am I worthy of growth? Why shouldn’t I keep proving myself in various ways? Why can’t I just be satisfied with how things are now and reach out to the lady when I do have the means plus abundance? Why the rush? The healthiest thing maybe to just weather this storm, and doing what I can to develop the skills to create abundance, to take care of my hair more easily, alongside discovering Michelin-starred restaurants, team sports, martial arts, twerking classes, and pole dancing lessons 🥲 etc etc etc.