π DISSECT π
Fear of abandonment/object constancy
I feel loved, seen and shy when I see with my physical eyes that I am the only one receiving attention from theπβ€οΈπΌπ». That I am the only one who they are making eye contact with and smiling at.
I feel loved, shy, unseen and jealous when I see with my physical eyes that theyπβ€οΈπΌπ» are also paying attention to someone or something else and are not making eye contact with me only and not smiling at me only.
I feel unloved, unseen, jealous, confused, powerless, desperate and sad when I don’t see with my physical eyes who or what theyπβ€οΈπΌπ» are paying attention too. Who they are making eye contact with and are smiling at. I don’t see with my physical eyes that they care about me.
So when theyπβ€οΈπΌπ» are out of sight, at their own happy, safe place, I feel unloved, unseen, jealous, confused, powerless, desperate and sad, eventhough the physical distance only changed and it’s still the same day.
Because my physical eyes can’t see them smiling and looking at me, I can’t see ποΈποΈ nor rememberβͺ, that they really cares about me, that we are connected π.
Would I feel lovedβ€οΈπ, if I make time to spend one on one quality time regurarly with multiple π¨βπ§π§πΆ one hour per week (by grabbing a cup of coffeeβ or teaπ΅ only, for example)? Would those new connections π meet my need to feel seen and loved, if they smile and look at me? Would asking questions to see ποΈποΈ them more, deepen the connectionπ? Would it lower my fear of abandonment in the one on one quality times, if I saw ποΈποΈ multiple π¨βπ§π§πΆ who really care about me?
I feel a deep connection β€οΈππΌπ». Because they gave me love, attention and acception, after they saw my imperfections, messiness, clumsiness, unlike Perfecti. They even believed in me. This true care/intimacy, their warmth β€οΈππΌπ» , gives me warm fuzzy feelings, a higher body temperature to this day. π₯NOWπ‘οΈπβΌοΈπ₯ I guess, I do remember βͺ and do feel the connection π. They are out of sight and I feel π the connectionπ. I rememberβͺ how they cared for me after seeing ποΈποΈmy imperfections. This memoryβͺ makes me feelπ the connectionπ again.
