Yesterday at the beach

Loreens (healthy adult mode) perspective:

Today I took – my inner child – Leentje to the beach. We read a book on the beach. She desired a herring sandwich. I gave her this sandwich with a very fresh herring straight out of the North Sea(which I didn’t have to catch myself). After that, she NEEDED ice cream with all the toppings that were available. But that was not possible there, so she opted for the hot chocolate topping. At the end of our trip together I gave her a present: lavender fragrance sticks for next to her bed. She loves this scent. Especially before going to sleep.

Leentjes (inner child mode) perspective:

Loreen wrote a letter for me at the beach. I read it and suddenly I felt safe and stopped hiding, behind my survival mode, Lorena. I grieved the loss of many carefree childhood moments. I felt very sad. I cried. After I cried, my tension dropped. I was able to receive safe attention and felt loved, happy, proud and thankful. I desired a herring sandwich, so I asked for it. It tasted salty. I ate it while smiling. I felt a little afraid as well because the birds there are ruthless. I saw them hunting on others peoples food. So before I ordered my sandwich I asked the fish salesperson where the safest spot was to eat the herring sandwich. Which was at the stand. I didn’t only eat a herring sandwich. I NEEDED ice cream. I asked for it and got it. I enjoyed it thoroughly. Every bite was as if a piece of heaven exploded on my tongue. What a joy!!! I felt excited, but a little dissapointed that I didn’t get ALL the available toppings on my ice cream cone. At the store Loreen bought me lavender scented sticks. Which I felt very grateful for. She picked a thoughful gift. I love the lavender scent. Especially, right before I go to sleep.