🧸 Q-time 🧸

What’s the hardest part about growing up?

Letting go of people who do see me.

What’s your biggest struggle right now?

Letting go.

What makes you feel loved?

To be seen (boundaries, emotions, needs).

What do you dread doing today?

Meet people who don’t see me.

How can we make it better?

Try to see me, try to communicate my needs, emotions and boundaries and try to walk away.

What are you reading today? Tell me about it.

Papiamentu & Dutch

Today I’m reading (listening to an audiobook) a book to learn my first languages Papiamento and Dutch. My mother spoke Papiamento to me at home, while my father spoke Dutch to me. I was taught to respond in Dutch. My goal is to accept my Dutch accent when I speak Papiamento, because I grew up bilingual, was raised in the Netherlands surrounded by natives who spoke Dutch as well. I’m beginning at level 1 because I am open and feel curious.

The Torah for dummies

Although my parents were both raised Catholic, I was raised without religion (up until I was 16) and was taught by my father to be open and free to choose. My choice is to connect. I intend to connect. Understanding someone’s background helps to connect. I’m reading the Torah for dummies today. Reading this book helps me to understand a part of their world a bit more. I like the dummies books series, because of how these books objectively summarize one subject. From the basics to the more technical stuff.

Was there someone who was really nice to you today?

Yes.

Were you proud of yourself today?

Yes. I showed up for what I love despite my fear of rejection, I opened up a little and received love, acceptance and attention.

What was your favourite thing to do today?

Attend ballet class🩰.

What do you wish we did more often?

Show up, open up, receive love, acceptance and attention, and attend ballet class.

What’s the best part about growing up?

Letting people in who do see me.