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I have been considering dyeing my hair magenta/burgundy red for a while now to express my sensuality. I can only make this decision if I cultivate this side of myself gradually and in a safe environment, like under a wig. By dyeing my natural hair red, I am physically embracing my sensual side and learning to value and care for it. Maybe one day, I’ll have the confidence to wear it outside—but only when I have the energy to fully own it.

I look forward to wearing my long, healthy, sensual magenta/burgundy red, natural hair and to play with red lipsticks to see which shade suits me best. What steps do I need to take to reach this goal? And what is the next step?

A long wig for regular use, perhaps. I want a wig that fits the norm (to quickly, superficially, and visually equalize my unfair toxic parent mode standards) while also aligning with my lifestyle, personality. An elegant, playful blonde curly/wavy wig that complements my complexion, requires minimal maintenance, and blends in seamlessly.

This way, I can maintain an active lifestyle and focus on my daily life without spending too much time on hairstyling.

My hair has often reflected my emotional stability. My emotional (in)stability in turn affects my financial situation. Without financial stability, professionally treated hair is unattainable for me. I’ve worked on controlling impulsive hairstyle changes, which has helped me temporarily, but I know that addressing the deeper emotional causes is still a work in progress.

I still may switch things up, but it’s important to consider the underlying emotional needs as well and my financial situation.

I look forward to seeing how long my hair will be by my next – bleached/color treated – natural hair journey anniversary in early May 2025, when the last bit of professionally bleached hair will probably be gone. Just a little under three months to go.