🚶🏾♀️ STEP 🚶🏾♀️
Leentje felt more anxious😱, pressure (Perfecti, Lorena) to look done.
Listened to the messages of not being enough for a few minutes:
Perfecti: “Buck teef🚩, crooked teeth🚩, peach fuzz🚩, split ends🚩, old clothes🚩, messy hair🚩, lip scar🚩, nose scar🚩, small boobs🚩, box 📦✔️, used box📦🚩, 100+ bodycount🎠🚩, herpes🚩, big hands🚩, five head🚩, five o’clock shadow🚩, big feet🚩, small butt🚩, age: 30+🧱🚩, tramp stamp🚩 ashy armpits, elbows, knees🚩. Unworthy. Never enough.”
Loreen: “Let’s find a healthy way to take care of Leentje (like silent time to take care of what triggers, activates both Perfecti and Lorena), show her that she is of value the way she is and that she is enough. Worthy enough to create and keep a safe, happy place.”
Loreen decided to stop and ignore them by walking away and go outside anyway.
Closed the front door and felt more calm. Sat down for about 15 minutes. Took a few deep breaths. Tried to feel 💓. Felt a little cold🥶(-1°C ). Looked forward to a cup of tea🍵.Walked back inside. Made a cup of tea. Drank it.
