πΆπΎββοΈ STEP πΆπΎββοΈ
Leentje felt more anxiousπ±, pressure (Perfecti, Lorena) to look done.
Listened to the messages of not being enough for a few minutes:
Perfecti: “Buck teefπ©, crooked teethπ©, peach fuzzπ©, split endsπ©, old clothesπ©, messy hairπ©, lip scarπ©, nose scarπ©, small boobsπ©, box π¦βοΈ, used boxπ¦π©, 100+ bodycountπ π©, herpesπ©, big handsπ©, five headπ©, five o’clock shadowπ©, big feetπ©, small buttπ©, age: 30+π§±π©, tramp stampπ© ashy armpits, elbows, kneesπ©. Unworthy. Never enough.”
Lorena: “Hideπ§’! Fightπ₯!“
Loreen: “Let’s find a healthy way to take care of Leentje (like silent time to take care of what triggers, activates both Perfecti and Lorena), show her that she is of value the way she is and that she is enough. Worthy enough to create and keep a safe, happy place.”
Loreen decided to stop and ignore them by walking away and go outside anyway.
Closed the front door and felt more calm. Sat down for about 15 minutes. Took a few deep breaths. Tried to feel π. Felt a little coldπ₯Ά(-1Β°C ). Looked forward to a cup of teaπ΅.Walked back inside. Made a cup of tea. Drank it.
