🔥 LORENA 🔥

Deeply flawed

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Cotton candy

I want to do my own hair. Actually, I want to bleach the roots and possibly give it a keratin boost. It costs a fortune to have it done professionally, and it also takes time because – if I remember it correctly – it’s advisable not to bleach and use keratin treatments simultaneously. Maybe I’ll just bleach the roots. Either way, it requires both time and money. The hair products for my cotton candy locks also come with a cost. I need a blonde wig for the transition phase because my kinky hair might be longer now and have knots here and there. I need time to comb it out if I want to take my time and retain as much of my natural hair as possible. Why remove the box braids? Because it’s getting warmer, and ideally, I’ll be wearing my own hair then. I find braids more convenient in colder and windier weather; that way, I don’t have to worry about my wig flying off my head🌬🚴🏾‍♀️ or my straightened kinky hair reverting to its natural wild state after heavy rain. If money were no object, I’d prefer to have different blonde wigs to alternate with during the transition phase and to calmly comb out my own hair before scheduling an appointment with my favorite hairdresser. She’s my favorite because, although we look very different, when she treats me, I feel like a princess like the rest of her clients. So, I’ll definitely have the roots done and perhaps choose a blonde shade that complements my skin tone and eyes. I’m saving up for it because I also have ideas for my new pastel-colored wardrobe, which will also be quite expensive. Sometimes I wonder why I put in all this effort, money, and time. Then I remember, my hair is so much, probably longer and so curly kinky and fine, almost like wild silk cotton candy. So, I can’t pretend that I need less than extremely cautious care and angelic patience 🥲 with my hair. I find it unfair that taking care of my hair might require relatively more patience, time, money, and effort, and that I need countless euros and hours to feel pretty😫😮‍💨. My beauty routine, including this hair care, is relatively expensive and time-consuming. Or is it?

I might need a little more patience with my hair, and a smaller step towards feeling pretty. That is to tidy up the hair I wear. I wear braids with uneven divisions, uneven thicknesses, and unequal lengths, some of which sometimes spontaneously come loose due to all the running around I do. I’ve been missing my comb for a while and only use brushes. I’ve done what I could, but to feel prettier, it might help to first create more order in what I already have. I intend to give more attention to my scalp and create equal divisions one by one. Part evenly with a comb, grease my scalp, braid, repeat.

Perhaps using new braiding hair to create equal lengths. With this affordable way, I ensure that I look tidy even though it takes longer to see the end result. If I look tidier, I often feel a bit prettier. And as for the heat that’s coming, I can potentially add less braiding hair. I want to thank everyone who has looked at my hair for their patience. In order for me to truly welcome long kinky, wild and nurtured hair, I need develop more courage to fully embrace every strand with care, and patience⏳️. I can handle this. I got this👩🏾‍🦱.