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After feeling more connected throughout the day, I experienced a sense of emptiness on my way back home. Despite having a well-prepared shopping list, I felt tempted to overspend, binge eat, and struggled with impulsive purchases. Nevertheless, I managed to stick to my list and now I’m enjoying a homemade meal at home, having allowed myself to shed some tears. I realized the temporary nature of connections in general. This unsettling realization made me cry. Fortunately, I get to appreciate the presence of people in my life, even if they’re temporary. I strive to connect and be open.

While avoiding overspending or binge eating, I considered rewarding myself for setting boundaries on my defense/survival mechanisms possibly by converting them (the sum of the rewards; I may already have €30 to reward myself) into a monetary reward at the end of the month, on top of my splurge budget. This might motivate me to take another beautiful step, whether the connection is temporary or not.

Although turning my other cheek may seem more pleasant for the recipient of this display, than me showing my backbone🦴, embracing this new growth may foster deeper connections with like-minded individuals.